Disgusted

Omg!! Eww eww
Hw can she be so cheap? Dare nak strip infrnt of guys jz cz to win a bet?
Tu pun 50 bugs?
Cmon la bitchy.. Ur dat poor dy izit? Go sit at the side of the street n beg aso can gt more la..
What kind of a girl are u? Cheap mentality.. No wonder la ur goin aftr other peoples owntage :D
Wakakakakaka.. Even if i feel disgusted kan, i'm super fucking proud of myself that i'm a much better girl than u.. Go stuff ur ass sumwhere else la..
Learn hw to behave infrnt of public, jangan mengada n menggedik.
DUN TOUCH OTHER PEOPLES PROPERTY TOO <3

HIyoo aiyoo.. I knew the moment i saw u that there was sumthng hidden behind that angelic face la..
Jz so u noe, i've hated u since lyk FOREVER u noe..
Nw i noe ur stories la bitch..


PrOuD Me <3

My Letter To Him

What does he seriously thnk abt himself?
Ouhmygawdd.. First he triggers the idea in me to read it.. Bt then when i have sumthng to say about that fucking thing, i get screwed..
Itz been goin on fr almost a yr nw..(the pressure)
Things jz aint the same anymore.. I wish i had the old us back..
Bt i guess the old us includes the package of having a playboy as my other half..
That!! I dont want! Y can they just let him be?
Y cant he jz be the one i wanna stick with..
Y cant he forget his past n get over them?
Y does he have to annoy me with them?
N the most hurtful thing is..
Y cant he jz try to be mine? :'(

U say ur trying.. Bt heyy, i dun see the efforts u noe..
The only reason i'm being possesive like this is because of what u did! Dun u dare nlame me for that. If u were sincere in d first place, it would have never been like this.
I have another few more days for my exam.. N i gt treated lyk this by u?
N u said u dun wanna distract me? Then what r u duin nw?
Everytime we have a fight, itz because of ur fans, or ur ex's,
Y cant u gt the fucking idea that i'm nt fucking interested!?!?!?!?!?

I have to deal with all this.. Y now? Y me?
Talk abt giving in? If it was about once or twice, itz forgivable.. Nt wen it happens every two weeks..

I already have enough junk to go thru in my life, all i ever asked was sum love and care..
Bt i never got it totally.. I jz wish u would understand.
I accepted ol tose lies u told me.. Hw much more heartache can i take? Where's the love?
I always tell myself not to cry jz because u dun like me crying. Bt the pain is jz too much to take.. It flows by itself..

U found out abt sumthng i din mean to do and gt really upset. And that was jz 1 guy..
I magine wat i go thru wen i find out abt stuff u do.. This is uncountable..
Would u keep ur lies n jz stick to ur promises? Ur AYATS r jz too gud.. I cant really resist myself from them.
I guess its jz cz love is blind? Where's d moral in this? Each tym the pain gets worse..
I hv noone to talk to. I've sactifised so much.. Everythng jz went to the trash. I've lost self respect towards myself. I've lost so many precious things jz for u. My loneliness brings me back to being dreppresed.

I jz really wish u could understand how it is for me.. Ur expectations are to hugh fr me. I'm a normal gurl too.. I have feelings too.. I'm not a fucking doll to jz sit there and smile no matter how much u use me. Dun i even have the ryts to do that? Well.. Nw this fucking hurts okayh.. I jz feel lyk u dun care anymore.

I' not lyk u.. I jz am myself.. I changed so much fr u. N if u gt hurt fr that, think of what u did. But i stil love u :( i always have, n i always will. Pls understand that...


CrUsHeD
='(

WAHT HAVE I DONE?!?!?!?!?

ouh shyitt...jz a few minutes ago
i was hoping all goes wel...
n nw...everythng is goin the total opposite way....
i hate it..
i hate everythng...
i hate me for even asking dat question....
i hate my whole week...
nthng has been goin ryt for d both of us
n nw...ouh god...we've prayed so much jz 4 dat 1 wish..
pls dun do this...

i've done sumthng so stupid..
dat i'm d one dats gonna face d consequences..
whether gud or bad...
i can nvr forgive myself for what i did...

god pls gv me d strength 2 go thru ol this... <3

Xx~DiA~xX

haihz....aherm i tel u ahhh
loves:
pissing me off...
making fun of me...
complaints abt me...
n does ol sorts of thng 2 annoy me ( even though dia tahu i wil cry)

bt den...itz like...d nx minute we communicate...
we forget ol our differences...n we love each others company

the phrase 'what am i without your trust'
plays a vry big role as well kan

so...technically praying this romance lives forever ...
without hurting anyone...(especially any 1 of us both)

erhm...DEN Y IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?????????

haihz...i jz hope watevr i'm duin is ryt...
n i hope everythng goes wel..
hehe too many hopes huh...
bt hey, i'm human too u noe...

ouh my ajnabi...
naa jaane tum kahan chale gaye ho
yaad mujhe tum kitna aarahain hun <3

Maintaining my patience

no fon for 3 days...nt sad...bt worried...
yes...WORRIED!!!
i mean like...ugh!!!
ish!!!!
kononnya la...'nvr mind da...dun worry...talk 4 awhile eniugh dy kay...i dun wan u to gt in trouble'
haihzzz...
i dun wanna talk abt it...cz...hahaha...dats hw THEY are..hahaha
i mean...DATS US!!!
is kinda waiting 4 aherm 2 cum on9...bt i dun thnk so la...
takkan punyaaa...
bt...
i'm under goin therapy ryt nw...hehehe...yes...MUSIC...
heeeehuuuuuheeeehuuuuu...

much better now...
n i'm getting motivated at d same tym now too....hehehehe
let alone entertained...bt...nthng beats aherm la kan?

ouh my gawddd...getting so possesive...wel...dats hw gurls are kan?
lol la...
aftr 1 week cuming on9...phewwww...

damn tired la...dats d sad part...n hectic as well...
so...ALL IS WELL...hahaha
nytez nw...more nx tym yea...

bubbyeeeee

AiShU

1 more day till i hit school....

owh my goshhhh
ew...i'll be heading school 2mrw...
aftr soo long...hw sad...
ehehehe...well...its gonna be my last yr there...
might as well enjoy it while i can kan?

tuition registered...so i hv 2 rush rush n rush
lol...haihz...
dear spm...y do u hv 2 cum so fast???
i jz hope i gt thngs ryt b4 u cum na.....

owh yea...i'm almost done with my chinese new year shopping...
yay!!!!
oo...thaipusam, carrying paal kudam ths tym...
hehehe...thaipusam brings back so many memories la...
hahaha...(refer previous posts)

den...i guess i'm kinda prepared 4 school physically...bt not mentally...
my mum jz told me 2 iron my uniforms n sew on d badge...lol...hehehe

i am gonna miss my sleep alot though...
bubbye sleep...gonna miss u...hahahaha

i guess thats ol i have 2 say 4 nw...nthng much has happened this m'ning...
except 4 dat call dat made me smile d whole day...(aherm aherm)
hahahhahaha...

aitez aitez...i gtg nw...more next tym...
thx 4 reading..bubbyeee

signing off, excitedly
*~*~AiShU~*~*~

3 hours to 2011

hahaha...three more hours till the end of 2010..
a sec after that, a new yr is gonna be born...
so are new hopes n new resolutions...
n happie new yr my love...needudi vaazhghe...hahaha...
wel...with only a few more hrs 2 spare..
its a note down memory lane...
all the nonsense i've done..
all my achievements i've made...
alll my happening performances and
well...all the betrayals and
being back stabbed by ur luved one's
and oll the other things and much much more...

rewinding time and correcting them will be impossible
bt mending them now is a YES
it might not be easy for me to forgive and forget...
bt i think i should at leats give it a try..
i guess all i hv is 1 more year to spend in my school and enjoy with my friends..
then we'll ol be heading different directions to pursue our dreamz...
and life's not gonna be this easy anymore..

lolx...and then
hope all my gurls will be happie with their ahermz...as "moi"
ehe ehe ehehehehe
anyways chickadees...
wish all of you a very very happie and joyful new year 2011
may god bless u ol n may ur dreams cum true as well...
chayunk korang..
bye bye...

signing off, happily (cz i'm kinda hyper at the moment. hehehe paham paham je laa)
*~*~AiShU~*~*