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Disgusted

2011-11-04T03:26:00.000-07:00

Omg!! Eww eww
Hw can she be so cheap? Dare nak strip infrnt of guys jz cz to win a bet?
Tu pun 50 bugs?
Cmon la bitchy.. Ur dat poor dy izit? Go sit at the side of the street n beg aso can gt more la..
What kind of a girl are u? Cheap mentality.. No wonder la ur goin aftr other peoples owntage :D
Wakakakakaka.. Even if i feel disgusted kan, i'm super fucking proud of myself that i'm a much better girl than u.. Go stuff ur ass sumwhere else la..
Learn hw to behave infrnt of public, jangan mengada n menggedik.
DUN TOUCH OTHER PEOPLES PROPERTY TOO <3

HIyoo aiyoo.. I knew the moment i saw u that there was sumthng hidden behind that angelic face la..
Jz so u noe, i've hated u since lyk FOREVER u noe..
Nw i noe ur stories la bitch..

PrOuD Me <3

My Letter To Him

2011-11-03T02:11:00.000-07:00

What does he seriously thnk abt himself?
Ouhmygawdd.. First he triggers the idea in me to read it.. Bt then when i have sumthng to say about that fucking thing, i get screwed..
Itz been goin on fr almost a yr nw..(the pressure)
Things jz aint the same anymore.. I wish i had the old us back..
Bt i guess the old us includes the package of having a playboy as my other half..
That!! I dont want! Y can they just let him be?
Y cant he jz be the one i wanna stick with..
Y cant he forget his past n get over them?
Y does he have to annoy me with them?
N the most hurtful thing is..
Y cant he jz try to be mine? :'(

U say ur trying.. Bt heyy, i dun see the efforts u noe..
The only reason i'm being possesive like this is because of what u did! Dun u dare nlame me for that. If u were sincere in d first place, it would have never been like this.
I have another few more days for my exam.. N i gt treated lyk this by u?
N u said u dun wanna distract me? Then what r u duin nw?
Everytime we have a fight, itz because of ur fans, or ur ex's,
Y cant u gt the fucking idea that i'm nt fucking interested!?!?!?!?!?

I have to deal with all this.. Y now? Y me?
Talk abt giving in? If it was about once or twice, itz forgivable.. Nt wen it happens every two weeks..

I already have enough junk to go thru in my life, all i ever asked was sum love and care..
Bt i never got it totally.. I jz wish u would understand.
I accepted ol tose lies u told me.. Hw much more heartache can i take? Where's the love?
I always tell myself not to cry jz because u dun like me crying. Bt the pain is jz too much to take.. It flows by itself..

U found out abt sumthng i din mean to do and gt really upset. And that was jz 1 guy..
I magine wat i go thru wen i find out abt stuff u do.. This is uncountable..
Would u keep ur lies n jz stick to ur promises? Ur AYATS r jz too gud.. I cant really resist myself from them.
I guess its jz cz love is blind? Where's d moral in this? Each tym the pain gets worse..
I hv noone to talk to. I've sactifised so much.. Everythng jz went to the trash. I've lost self respect towards myself. I've lost so many precious things jz for u. My loneliness brings me back to being dreppresed.

I jz really wish u could understand how it is for me.. Ur expectations are to hugh fr me. I'm a normal gurl too.. I have feelings too.. I'm not a fucking doll to jz sit there and smile no matter how much u use me. Dun i even have the ryts to do that? Well.. Nw this fucking hurts okayh.. I jz feel lyk u dun care anymore.

I' not lyk u.. I jz am myself.. I changed so much fr u. N if u gt hurt fr that, think of what u did. But i stil love u :( i always have, n i always will. Pls understand that...

CrUsHeD
='(

WAHT HAVE I DONE?!?!?!?!?

2011-02-25T03:38:00.000-08:00

ouh shyitt...jz a few minutes ago
i was hoping all goes wel...
n nw...everythng is goin the total opposite way....
i hate it..
i hate everythng...
i hate me for even asking dat question....
i hate my whole week...
nthng has been goin ryt for d both of us
n nw...ouh god...we've prayed so much jz 4 dat 1 wish..
pls dun do this...

i've done sumthng so stupid..
dat i'm d one dats gonna face d consequences..
whether gud or bad...
i can nvr forgive myself for what i did...

god pls gv me d strength 2 go thru ol this... <3

Xx~DiA~xX

2011-02-25T03:24:00.000-08:00

haihz....aherm i tel u ahhh
loves:
pissing me off...
making fun of me...
complaints abt me...
n does ol sorts of thng 2 annoy me ( even though dia tahu i wil cry)

bt den...itz like...d nx minute we communicate...
we forget ol our differences...n we love each others company

the phrase 'what am i without your trust'
plays a vry big role as well kan

so...technically praying this romance lives forever ...
without hurting anyone...(especially any 1 of us both)

erhm...DEN Y IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?????????

haihz...i jz hope watevr i'm duin is ryt...
n i hope everythng goes wel..
hehe too many hopes huh...
bt hey, i'm human too u noe...

ouh my ajnabi...
naa jaane tum kahan chale gaye ho
yaad mujhe tum kitna aarahain hun <3

Maintaining my patience

2011-01-07T05:14:00.000-08:00

no fon for 3 days...nt sad...bt worried...
yes...WORRIED!!!
i mean like...ugh!!!
ish!!!!
kononnya la...'nvr mind da...dun worry...talk 4 awhile eniugh dy kay...i dun wan u to gt in trouble'
haihzzz...
i dun wanna talk abt it...cz...hahaha...dats hw THEY are..hahaha
i mean...DATS US!!!
is kinda waiting 4 aherm 2 cum on9...bt i dun thnk so la...
takkan punyaaa...
bt...
i'm under goin therapy ryt nw...hehehe...yes...MUSIC...
heeeehuuuuuheeeehuuuuu...

much better now...
n i'm getting motivated at d same tym now too....hehehehe
let alone entertained...bt...nthng beats aherm la kan?

ouh my gawddd...getting so possesive...wel...dats hw gurls are kan?
lol la...
aftr 1 week cuming on9...phewwww...

damn tired la...dats d sad part...n hectic as well...
so...ALL IS WELL...hahaha
nytez nw...more nx tym yea...

bubbyeeeee

AiShU

1 more day till i hit school....

2011-01-01T21:40:00.000-08:00

owh my goshhhh
ew...i'll be heading school 2mrw...
aftr soo long...hw sad...
ehehehe...well...its gonna be my last yr there...
might as well enjoy it while i can kan?

tuition registered...so i hv 2 rush rush n rush
lol...haihz...
dear spm...y do u hv 2 cum so fast???
i jz hope i gt thngs ryt b4 u cum na.....

owh yea...i'm almost done with my chinese new year shopping...
yay!!!!
oo...thaipusam, carrying paal kudam ths tym...
hehehe...thaipusam brings back so many memories la...
hahaha...(refer previous posts)

den...i guess i'm kinda prepared 4 school physically...bt not mentally...
my mum jz told me 2 iron my uniforms n sew on d badge...lol...hehehe

i am gonna miss my sleep alot though...
bubbye sleep...gonna miss u...hahahaha

i guess thats ol i have 2 say 4 nw...nthng much has happened this m'ning...
except 4 dat call dat made me smile d whole day...(aherm aherm)
hahahhahaha...

aitez aitez...i gtg nw...more next tym...
thx 4 reading..bubbyeee

signing off, excitedly
*~*~AiShU~*~*~

3 hours to 2011

2010-12-31T05:40:00.000-08:00

hahaha...three more hours till the end of 2010..
a sec after that, a new yr is gonna be born...
so are new hopes n new resolutions...
n happie new yr my love...needudi vaazhghe...hahaha...
wel...with only a few more hrs 2 spare..
its a note down memory lane...
all the nonsense i've done..
all my achievements i've made...
alll my happening performances and
well...all the betrayals and
being back stabbed by ur luved one's
and oll the other things and much much more...

rewinding time and correcting them will be impossible
bt mending them now is a YES
it might not be easy for me to forgive and forget...
bt i think i should at leats give it a try..
i guess all i hv is 1 more year to spend in my school and enjoy with my friends..
then we'll ol be heading different directions to pursue our dreamz...
and life's not gonna be this easy anymore..

lolx...and then
hope all my gurls will be happie with their ahermz...as "moi"
ehe ehe ehehehehe
anyways chickadees...
wish all of you a very very happie and joyful new year 2011
may god bless u ol n may ur dreams cum true as well...
chayunk korang..
bye bye...

signing off, happily (cz i'm kinda hyper at the moment. hehehe paham paham je laa)
*~*~AiShU~*~*

30 dec 2010

2010-12-30T03:52:00.000-08:00

30th december 2010.
woke up with swollen eyes...
due 2 the weeping i did all night long...
wel...my eyes was totally red and d weeping left my eyes red n it gave me soar throat and also the cold...so as a conclusion...i didn't reli have a gud morning laaa....
left for beakfast with my dad n then went grocery shopping with him...
came bake home, followed my mommy to the hair saloon, thinking she was goin just to cut her hair..
i followed her only to find out that she was gonna rebond...awww man....
imagine sitting in 1 position for three whole hours...OUCH!!!
then did sum shopping with her had KFC for my so called LUNCH at 5 o clock...=)
came home, n called u noe hu...
only 2 get more upset that is...
yea...d thng abt y'day..dat i dun wanna thnk of...dats d reason
and was pretty lame on d fon...weird as well...
hung up and switched on d pc, and now i'm listening 2 songs as i'm writting this...
oo...which reminds me...i have 2 dry my teddy..( gt wet while weeping y'day)
bt..stil sounded nicey on the fon wen i called...(gt bored waiting in d saloon lerr)
i guess...life's reli complicated haa...
i'll try my luck again later n see how things go..hope luch is on my side..
watever darlzz...
haihz...gotta go 2 school tomorrow n collect my text books...maybe lepak there for awhile n celebrate new year wit my gurlz...before i go back home...

2mrws new yrs eve...n i dun have a new yr resolution yt jorr...
hmm...we'll thnk abt dat later...
owh god...pls make my wishes cum true...

thats ol for now...more to come soon...
signing off, with lotsa hope
*~*~AiShU~*~*

~* my favourite Manmathan Ambu songs *~

2010-12-29T03:33:00.000-08:00

countdown for 2011

2010-12-29T03:27:00.000-08:00

2 more days till new years eve...
n well...
new year...new beginning, a whole new resolution.
everything was going just as perfect as it should be..
when a great bomb fell on me.
well...not literally of cause.
a huge news...a sad story...frm the other half of me...
things have not been goin right these few months...
i just wish that ...
i regain everythng i've lost...( stil trying nt 2 thnk of IT )
n just be as happie as i can 4 d whole of next year...
ups and downs...bt...life has 2 move on...
its a new year...
n i'm gonna prove it that I CAN...n I WILL DO IT!!!
wel...jz wanna use this chance i have here 2 wish each and every1 of u
A VERY HAPPIE NEW 2011
let go off d past n start fresh...
wel...i'm sorry guys...not in d mood 2 party
actually...i'm not in d mood 2 do anythng...
kinda emo at d moment...as i said b4...heard sumthng i didn't want 2 hear
bt memories will always be carved in my mind..
that i cant ignore..
so...
happie new year guys...
comforting myself at the moment saying
" ALL IS WELL "

> ThE eNd <
(^^,)

my citrawarna night

2010-09-21T03:38:00.000-07:00

haihz....22n may...2010....was a very memorable day 4 all of d form 4 students from smk puteri titiwangsa n seri titiwangsa....

it was our last day 4 citrawarna...how sad la....haihzzzzz.....y did it have 2 end so soon???? i miss being in a live show.....
anyways hu cares....there was this dumb ass that proposed 2 me that day...n d next day denied the whole thng.....hachoo...typiccal idiot attitude....anyway...dun wanna even talk abt him cz he sucks....wud nvr imagine being with him...

nxt...got a new pet brother on dat day...hahahahaha...my peria anne...satis...wakkakakakakakaka..... no la...we're jz frenz bti cal him anne...dah biasa dah....

den on monday had exam....chemistry....sucked
tuesday...bio.....sucked!!!!

d damn ass told evry1 a diff story n put d blame on me...nw he's jz played with my frenz life...bloody hell...ah...eff him off la...

hahahahah....life's awesomeee...=)

my life aftr sooooo long....

2010-09-21T03:23:00.000-07:00

thaalattu paada nee illaiye..
thalai saithu kolla madi illaiye
manathodu pesa vazhi illaiye
yen kann moodi thoongga thunai illaiyee x2

kathal enbathu theivam aannatha
kattru konden ithu kashtammaanathu
therinthum koode vananggughirean!
unnai seramel vaadi naan urughinean

yaar seivathillai, thappu kuttranggal
ingge yaar seivathillai...penne
yaar seivathillai, thappu kuttranggal
ini yaar seivathillai uyire

yenthan theivame..kann thirappaiya
illai endral marainthiduvaaya...

thaalattu paada nee illaiye..
thalai saithu kolla madi illaiye
manathodu pesa vazhi illaiye
yen kann moodi thoongga thunai illaiyee

anbu'm shaanthamum maayam'aanatha
naan seitha paavam maati veithatha
uranggum kangal yenggi vittathey
unnai paarkamel neerum vellam'aanathe

yaar seivathillai, thappu kuttranggal
ingge yaar seivathillai...penne
yaar seivathillai, thappu kuttranggal
ini yaar seivathillai uyire

yenthan nenjame sernthiduvaaya
yen kaathalil nee yerinthiduvaaya....

superb song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-24T22:49:00.000-07:00

my favs....part 2!!!

2009-05-18T06:39:00.000-07:00

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feewwiiitt....luv these songs

2009-05-17T00:25:00.000-07:00

my fav songs!!!

2009-05-16T20:48:00.000-07:00

dedicated 2 sum1 special!!!

2009-05-16T20:38:00.001-07:00

nenje nenje nee engge....naanum angge.....en vazhvum angge!!
anbe anbe naan ingge....degham ingge.....en jeevan engge??

en nathiye en kann munne vatri ponai....
vaan mazhaiyaghe ennai thedi mannil vanthai....
en thaaganggal theeramal.....kadalil yen sergirai???

ho....nenje nenje nee yengge....naanum angge....
en vazhvum angge....

kanne en kanne naan unnai kaanamal...
vaanum en mannum poiyaghe kandenea...

anbe peranbe naan unnai cheramal....
avi en avi naan etru ponenea

veyil kaalam vanthalthan neerum thenaghum...
pirivondru kondal tha kathal rusiyaghum....

un paarvai padum thooram en vaazhil uyir neelum...
un mutchi padum neram....en degham manal aghum...

nenje nenje nee engge....naanum angge....
anbe anbe....naan ingge.....degham ingge.....yen jeevan engge!!!

kalva yeh kalva nee kathal seiyamal....
kannum en nenjum en patchai ketkathe

kathal mei kathal athu patru poghathey
katru nam boomi athai vittu poghathai.....

aaghayam idam maari ponal poghatum....
aanal nee manam maari poghakudathey!!
hey vatcha thamaraiye.....en utcha tharaghaiye.....
kadal mannai ponalum....
nam kathal marathey!!!

nenje nenje nee engge....
naanum angge .....en vazhvum angge
anbe anbe naan ingge.....degham ingge.....enn jeevan engge!!!
en nathiye en kann munne vatri ponai....
vaan mazhaiyaghe ennai thedi mannil vanthai....
en thaaganggal theeramal.....kadalil yen sergirai???

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sarvam, ayan n anantha thandavam review!!!

2009-05-16T20:25:00.000-07:00

hm.....went 2 watch sarvam with my family y'day....
for 1 of aarya's movie......its nt that bad wor!!!
for once they let him show his dancing talents...
but the sad part of the movie was wen trisha dies.....
so sad.....

my favourite song was siragugal vanthathu......
over all......i gv it a 7/10......

next is ayan.......
being one of surya's fan.....
i luved d mvie...........d songs were fantastic.....
especially nenje nenje n vizhi moodi.....
these 2 songs are the chart busters ryt now!!!!
surya n tamannah jz has gud chemistry!!!
ayan wins 9/10 with a little puppie( kiss )

anantha thandavam!!!!
different story though!
siddharth n tammanna.....nice nice!!!
poovinai n kannil aadum......current hits!!!!!
sad thing is tamannah dies at the end!!!!
anantha thandavam.....gets 8/10 lo!!!!

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Thaipusam 2009

2009-02-09T03:16:00.000-08:00

fooyooo.....my trip 2 batu caves on thaipusam was sooo nice.....it was like goin 2 heaven lo.....
1st my bro n his frenz came 2 ma hse 2 help him prepare the paal kudam....
48 small ones.....kesian all of them.....

then they drove my mums car 2 batu caves....
my brother....so pandai.....didn't wear his slipper n walked on the tar road......then we saw that all of his frenz oso tak pakai slipper......haiz!!!

then we went in waiting 4 vicky uncle 2 poke the thing 4 ma bro...but that uncle came late......
while we were waiting 4 that uncle....my bro's fren Parthi came.....and we started talking stories.....
ok.....we didn't talk that much but we waved at each other
after abt 2 hrs.....they poked 4 my bro....haiz.....standing 4 sooo long....imagine la......kadavule.!!!!!

then partz went 2 buy drinks and spoke 2 me.....

partz: paarkeleya??
me:....smile+ shake my head
partz: bayama??
me:....biasala.....
partz....nodded n said..."apparamma vaaren"( to bad tk simpan his promise )

then....we walked n walked....n walked
untill we reach the main entrance....i saw thanusha.....my junior in my tuition center....
we waved and i continued our journey!!

since my mum was nt going up.....so we stayed down....

my mum bought some stuff....and i jz watched.....and watched.....and watched....until 10 o' clock la.....
then my dad called and i told him where were we waiting 4 him...
and they came and we went back home.....dad went 2 send thaya's frenz back....

when my mum, me and thaya reached home....we relised that we didn't bring the key.....my dad had it with him

OMG.....waited 4 abt 10 mins then thaya said he was hungry so we went to eat hawker food.....every1 was mad with my dad that we couldn't finish our food.....
then we went back home and my dad was not back yet......

haiz.....waited 4 abt 30 minutes then my dad came back...and we...went home....

and i sleeped straight away!!

couldn't tahan my leg pain anymore!!!!

k lo......gotta go now.....see ya real sooooon!!!!!!

irava pagala + my day~~**

2008-11-12T05:08:00.000-08:00

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vanavillil vanavillil vannam ethukku,
vandu thodum vandu thodum thendral ethukku,
anthi vaanil anthi vaanil vekkam ethukku,
purinthathu purinthathu indru enakku,
mazhaiyinil megam thoongga,
malarinil vandu thongge,
un thozhile saaiye vanthen,
sollathe kaathalai sollidu.

Solli rasippen solli rasippen,
solli cholli nenji kulle enggum vasippen.

Irava pagala kulira veyila,
nammai ondrum seiyathudi
kadala puyala idiya mazhaiya,
nammai ondrum seiyathudi.

wat superb lirics ah???
hariharan's voice suits this song alot!!!
luv it lots....
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today is d last day of skul.
gt spotcheck summore..
lucky my fon nvr kena rampas...
if nt i die...
thank god...
bt my sakkarakatti....
gt stuck...( kena rampas)

kue.......kue.....
fine...wait till next year 2 gt it back!
no feeling that i'm leaving skul.
i'm happy instead...
dunno y!!!!
bubbye......write 2 u more soooooon!!!

this reminds me how wonderful life is

2008-09-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

today was Mr. nesa's last day...
he came in class..sat down...
n started doing sumting...
15 minutes b4 class ended...
they started taking pictures...
n when he started giving his speech...
Nasha sterted tearing...
so did i...
he said:" i dunno wat 2 say...i was getting so close to u guys
then suddenly....juz like that i have 2 go back 2 college...i feel sad i noe?"
this is when my eyes started welling up...
luckily i had tissues....
wakakakaka!
then i gave him my piggy book and ask him 2 write wishes..
this is what he wrote:

Hema,
don't be mad that i am saying this but,
please concentrate in ur studies.
I noe how u feel now, being in gurl skul,
at the age of 14,
having a bf is a wonderful thing.
But are u making the right choises?
Do u think ur matured enough 2 noe wat is rite n wrong?
Maybe u did make the rite choice,
but what abt the things that u might do in the future?
My girlfren once told me, the greatest mistake she did in her life
is getting into a relationship when she was exactly the same age as u...
So, i'm not asking u 2 break up...NO......
just do not take it so seriously.
Take it like a fling, then it won't hurt sooo much.
You are a very good student witha bright future.
Think abt the people who loves u n do ur best in
everything that u do.
Good luck and best wishes in ur future undertakings.
Persue ur dreams with passion n do not forget me.
Take care and be a good girl.

Luvs,
ur teacher, NESA

WOW... wat a good example..
sir..if u read this don't forget 2 leave a comment ya.
thanx 4 ur advice and good luck in the future...
from all of us in 2 Usaha 2008..
Don't ever forget us ya!

i will never forget ur advice!!

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